you invest your feelings.
and then, when the person, thing, matter, issue you care about...
somehow, makes you feel disappointed...
you let it all out, and fight the disappointment.
an msn debate follows.
you stand your ground.
and at the end of it all, there's hope;
the disappointment can be rectified.
then the chat abruptly ends.
as does every other debate.
as does every phone call.
like i never mattered in the first place.
like i never existed.
like the years, the feelings, the effort i've invested didnt deserve a more polite, soothing conversation end.
it's an insult. but i'm still caring.
that's the trouble with caring
